it has to not make sense,
it had happened, there no point of going back,
there is no point to 'To look back'
it had happened.
we are here, need to deal with it,
but to whom?
it will get there but who will be there to wait for it?
Friday, April 23, 2010
This thought went through my mind, also it could be another explanation. that is if such tribal connection has ever existed.
Those few individuals who felt it was time to leave the pack as oppose stay within it. Those who grew their own pack and from there own made a branch of their own within the bigger tribal or clan.
This signifies the roots of civil and uncivil in here. I think it is relevant for those who want to explain how they ended up here is to distinguish whether or not theirs comes from those who had left or stayed out fear or consolidate
A quick look onto their cheer number, explains that there was one who felt to make it on his own, and out of fear kept in his blood line.
I wonder if there are others like him here who followed along his path
Those few individuals who felt it was time to leave the pack as oppose stay within it. Those who grew their own pack and from there own made a branch of their own within the bigger tribal or clan.
This signifies the roots of civil and uncivil in here. I think it is relevant for those who want to explain how they ended up here is to distinguish whether or not theirs comes from those who had left or stayed out fear or consolidate
A quick look onto their cheer number, explains that there was one who felt to make it on his own, and out of fear kept in his blood line.
I wonder if there are others like him here who followed along his path
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
they come from all walks of life, but wait not all countries, maybe just the those more than few super poor countries, they come to Jeddah to Makkah.
when i got back in 08 its seemed to me that the majority of the hard labor worker, builders, mavens, bakers hand work…in general. it is been done by people who came and then did not leave the land. however i was struck by the age variations within these workers, they are all old as in more than 50 years old construction workers.
this is not all, in another field such as newspaper, most of the workers or editors in this case, i looked and found are all old Egyptians, Syrians and other speaking Arabic national.
these observation really made wonder, or maybe made it clear if there will be any improvement in the movement for real development here.
the young and the able are all for administrative jobs , non wants to build men or woman in this case.
so these men are brought in to build and pave the roads, but for these guys its just a quick way to make money.
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
“The number of passengers chosen at random for extra screening will also increase, officials said.”
there is no random when you look the way I look, white people are just funny with money.
With all these information, all these people he didn’t know but he know about where they went where they will go, Clicks and clacks and green names on a black screen, and black names on white screen…for the first time he felt supreme, he felt like Informaglos the information hungry god who gathers and read them.
he never knew he would that powerful sometime
there is no random when you look the way I look, white people are just funny with money.
With all these information, all these people he didn’t know but he know about where they went where they will go, Clicks and clacks and green names on a black screen, and black names on white screen…for the first time he felt supreme, he felt like Informaglos the information hungry god who gathers and read them.
he never knew he would that powerful sometime
Friday, March 26, 2010
Before and after
Sometimes in the year 2000, I was wondering around the Webster Hall it was just after English writing or reading Class.
She was sitting on the floor by the side of the door, black eye small but bright, Hair was black and stirght and short with a slight of brown. “what’s your name ?”, she asked
I adujsted my stand came near her, got next to her sitting tiny healthy body, replied, “you speak good English”, “thank you”, the next thing I can not remember , but I do remember getting invited to her place sometime next week, we did meet briefly from time to time, just like the day, when there was a dinner serving at the Webster hall and I sighted her walking outside and I shouted come here, she came over and the rest I cant remember,
Before coming here, it was rough, hot and bitter, not always like that, but the feelings still flow in me, approaching girls was always a problem either for me, for her, or for both of us and for the “community”, when I met here, although I cant stop, looking, I really felt the inner peace.
Something about this girl just grabs me, not necessary a Japanese thing, Japanese girls are been known in campus to hang around just for the heck of hanging around,
I think personally of the reason of that they don’t have perceive people in the matter of the way we do see girls, we tend in purpose to pick on who we want to have, just for the fact of their outer looks, simple as that, but for us it reasonable enough, if he/she wears and ride fine, then the rest should be the same and by rest it’s the inner self and soul...etc.
My interest in anything Japanese is since childhood, its funny however that mentioning this to a Japanese person normally a male, he/she just don’t really mind it, well this point is understood, but thinking that someone shares someone else pop culture especially that of childhood would be appreciated, for example when I met her, I kept mention Japanese animation that a whole Saudi children well into their 40’s by now, grew to love and really adhere to its messages, one in particular is a cartoon called in Arabic [Adnan wa Lina]. And the romanized name from Japanese is future Boy Conan something like that, this particular cartoon, is really a legend in saudi, people grow up no doubt but that cartoon is just there.
So I mentioned this cartoon, and to my surprise the mild reaction was well. Mild, of course mention a cartoon to an “adult conversation” would seem stupid, but again it was Esl and it was English class, and first time meeting a Japanese person,
thinking about it must the way growing to my 20’s here in the Midwest in which, anything that looks not anything like my self is new, so look into what you have, as a person and try finding what we might have in common other then been humans, and mention it. for them or at least the ones I met , it meant nothing.
Trying to work my way to understand this girl took huge effort, but the result was and still is a love love relationship. I can never say I trusted her motive and, and this could for the main reason of our English barrier, tons of words were either messed part of its meaning or the whole meaning. A problem that still floats till now.
She was sitting on the floor by the side of the door, black eye small but bright, Hair was black and stirght and short with a slight of brown. “what’s your name ?”, she asked
I adujsted my stand came near her, got next to her sitting tiny healthy body, replied, “you speak good English”, “thank you”, the next thing I can not remember , but I do remember getting invited to her place sometime next week, we did meet briefly from time to time, just like the day, when there was a dinner serving at the Webster hall and I sighted her walking outside and I shouted come here, she came over and the rest I cant remember,
Before coming here, it was rough, hot and bitter, not always like that, but the feelings still flow in me, approaching girls was always a problem either for me, for her, or for both of us and for the “community”, when I met here, although I cant stop, looking, I really felt the inner peace.
Something about this girl just grabs me, not necessary a Japanese thing, Japanese girls are been known in campus to hang around just for the heck of hanging around,
I think personally of the reason of that they don’t have perceive people in the matter of the way we do see girls, we tend in purpose to pick on who we want to have, just for the fact of their outer looks, simple as that, but for us it reasonable enough, if he/she wears and ride fine, then the rest should be the same and by rest it’s the inner self and soul...etc.
My interest in anything Japanese is since childhood, its funny however that mentioning this to a Japanese person normally a male, he/she just don’t really mind it, well this point is understood, but thinking that someone shares someone else pop culture especially that of childhood would be appreciated, for example when I met her, I kept mention Japanese animation that a whole Saudi children well into their 40’s by now, grew to love and really adhere to its messages, one in particular is a cartoon called in Arabic [Adnan wa Lina]. And the romanized name from Japanese is future Boy Conan something like that, this particular cartoon, is really a legend in saudi, people grow up no doubt but that cartoon is just there.
So I mentioned this cartoon, and to my surprise the mild reaction was well. Mild, of course mention a cartoon to an “adult conversation” would seem stupid, but again it was Esl and it was English class, and first time meeting a Japanese person,
thinking about it must the way growing to my 20’s here in the Midwest in which, anything that looks not anything like my self is new, so look into what you have, as a person and try finding what we might have in common other then been humans, and mention it. for them or at least the ones I met , it meant nothing.
Trying to work my way to understand this girl took huge effort, but the result was and still is a love love relationship. I can never say I trusted her motive and, and this could for the main reason of our English barrier, tons of words were either messed part of its meaning or the whole meaning. A problem that still floats till now.
Too Many
They all start at around the same time and finish slightly after each others.
Its like a concert all over town, loud speakers.
When I came back have been used to it while growing up, I found little bit annoying at times, interestingly admitting this, that a microphone is loud from the call to pryer is called apostasy.
I hear them and think they all area competing for Air time, adverting for all to come to their house of Allah and leave everyone else.
When you go inside its little bit difference it is loud but this time there is a touch of voice enhancers to add to the dramatic effect of the reading.
They just got used to it I guess, it must have started sometimes in the fifties, interestingly also no one recalls when it was used nor who was the first to bring it to the houses of god, its never mentioned and when u hear it and see how imams wield it you think the transition was seamless , maybe it was maybe it wasn't and no one knows again, as its brushed off as unimportant. To me I think its the core of the tradition they are trying hard to protect.
Its like a concert all over town, loud speakers.
When I came back have been used to it while growing up, I found little bit annoying at times, interestingly admitting this, that a microphone is loud from the call to pryer is called apostasy.
I hear them and think they all area competing for Air time, adverting for all to come to their house of Allah and leave everyone else.
When you go inside its little bit difference it is loud but this time there is a touch of voice enhancers to add to the dramatic effect of the reading.
They just got used to it I guess, it must have started sometimes in the fifties, interestingly also no one recalls when it was used nor who was the first to bring it to the houses of god, its never mentioned and when u hear it and see how imams wield it you think the transition was seamless , maybe it was maybe it wasn't and no one knows again, as its brushed off as unimportant. To me I think its the core of the tradition they are trying hard to protect.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
BS
I was sitting at my desk here at the paper, one of the girls working at the next door office. Girls and guys are separated by a partition wall with and a small door. one of the girl’s cell phone rang, the tone was none other than the theme song for a animation TV series cartoon, used to air on Saudi TV channel One in the late eighties roughly translated as people’s stories...roughly it might have been known as something else in the states or in Korea or Japan it could be China.
the style of drawing is all too familiar it is Anime 12 frames per-second stuff the was given an Arabic name, a young girl narrated a story from what I understood now days is that most of that translation is been done in either Syria or Lebanon I thought anyway and I cant conform it as information is really scarce here, and by here in the Arabic world world in general you will get what you want digging for it is really hard.
That girl was reluctant to send in the tone to my phone, she ran away as it been claimed to the states
the style of drawing is all too familiar it is Anime 12 frames per-second stuff the was given an Arabic name, a young girl narrated a story from what I understood now days is that most of that translation is been done in either Syria or Lebanon I thought anyway and I cant conform it as information is really scarce here, and by here in the Arabic world world in general you will get what you want digging for it is really hard.
That girl was reluctant to send in the tone to my phone, she ran away as it been claimed to the states
shedding skin
One guy was a stay home, perhaps twenty-three years of age. Also from a well to do commerce family who I had heard from my mother actually denounced their Hadrameez heritage for more obscure front ”modern”.
passing winds
In Jeddah seems to be having some Intellectual phenomena movement that is hitting the local “coffee shops”.
Mostly young and privileged and call themselves intellectuals. they seem garner like minded Hijazi privileged people’s interest on to them.
I had the chance to get to sit down with some.
Before dropping by the meeting I kind of had I general idea to what kind of people I will be meeting with.
A group of few guys, some from “well known merchant class” that is still active,
Note-the reason of mentioning that point is that some in Jeddah merchants either hold to a name of a wealthy family that is not active anymore, or that this person could be a distant relative to the a current wealthy family.
On a Friday, right after the Friday prayer, the location to which where we will meet was a place called Andalusia, trendy place is allegedly owned and operated by another well-known young face Ahmed al Shigery.
So we sat down as to try to discuss some issues, the whole point of the meeting I guess was to see how much each unknown person knows about unknown things.
Mostly young and privileged and call themselves intellectuals. they seem garner like minded Hijazi privileged people’s interest on to them.
I had the chance to get to sit down with some.
Before dropping by the meeting I kind of had I general idea to what kind of people I will be meeting with.
A group of few guys, some from “well known merchant class” that is still active,
Note-the reason of mentioning that point is that some in Jeddah merchants either hold to a name of a wealthy family that is not active anymore, or that this person could be a distant relative to the a current wealthy family.
On a Friday, right after the Friday prayer, the location to which where we will meet was a place called Andalusia, trendy place is allegedly owned and operated by another well-known young face Ahmed al Shigery.
So we sat down as to try to discuss some issues, the whole point of the meeting I guess was to see how much each unknown person knows about unknown things.
opposition of thought or lamo mimic.
Here is an example there this guy something Ahamd shegeri. This guy comes on TV on a local satellite Tv channele MBC and talk of what he feel, is sense of the youths
and he explains things as he sees it, but wait that is not the right answer, Ahmad is actually talking to those who share an upbringing similar to his.
here is why, despite those in Riyadh or around the kingdom, who might agree with what he is saying, they wont necessarily follow his lead which is presumably what the boys who made the program are thinking including Ahamd.
and right there is the issue, i believe since coming back, it was always about money, and always about 'looking' at the end Ahamd hasn't really contributed to the society in the way he wanted through his tele program,
he forgot the simple a Jeddah tradition and that is there is none
and he explains things as he sees it, but wait that is not the right answer, Ahmad is actually talking to those who share an upbringing similar to his.
here is why, despite those in Riyadh or around the kingdom, who might agree with what he is saying, they wont necessarily follow his lead which is presumably what the boys who made the program are thinking including Ahamd.
and right there is the issue, i believe since coming back, it was always about money, and always about 'looking' at the end Ahamd hasn't really contributed to the society in the way he wanted through his tele program,
he forgot the simple a Jeddah tradition and that is there is none
the toughest trick
The trick is to know it, and know it's going on
And pretended to not want to talk about it
It's confusing and leaves place to many things
Its a place of many limitations
Its a place with hard made up traditions
And you cant just change it
you cant add to it
the Trick at the end is on you
And pretended to not want to talk about it
It's confusing and leaves place to many things
Its a place of many limitations
Its a place with hard made up traditions
And you cant just change it
you cant add to it
the Trick at the end is on you
its the call
I am trying contact Yasuko .
...But the case is that for some years she stopped answering phone calls at all. Yasuko wants to severe he contacts between us.
I can’t speculate on reasons but I think if I had to push for one she just might be busy as she claims. However because I get to check on what is up to through her emails I can tell that she just moved on, I don’t blame her at all.
And I might in fact deserve it after all.
I think this is what Yasuko wanted after all, this was a long fling no more, also that’s what she wanted.
I tried to see things for both of us. “Love is blind” bullshit is not true, this has nothing to do with love as much as it had to do with convenience.
Its not love as much as it’s money. It is those feelings that made me upset in the past and passes me from time to time but especially and strangely on Wednesday of every week.
The thing is I won't want accept it these things as facts (love?).
And I kept calling her many times, , and perhaps I wont ever hear.
Reality is one good and socmbring
...But the case is that for some years she stopped answering phone calls at all. Yasuko wants to severe he contacts between us.
I can’t speculate on reasons but I think if I had to push for one she just might be busy as she claims. However because I get to check on what is up to through her emails I can tell that she just moved on, I don’t blame her at all.
And I might in fact deserve it after all.
I think this is what Yasuko wanted after all, this was a long fling no more, also that’s what she wanted.
I tried to see things for both of us. “Love is blind” bullshit is not true, this has nothing to do with love as much as it had to do with convenience.
Its not love as much as it’s money. It is those feelings that made me upset in the past and passes me from time to time but especially and strangely on Wednesday of every week.
The thing is I won't want accept it these things as facts (love?).
And I kept calling her many times, , and perhaps I wont ever hear.
Reality is one good and socmbring
Slap in some whiel
Today Wednesday this man bin Mahfouz's son died,
uncle who I met earlier to give some money so he can buy dinner for his friend called me to tell me about the death and he said he needs help but he dont have a car to go and help.
I got ready, I wore my thoob and head wear, as i was ready to leave the throught the apt door, father was arriving, uncle told him about breaking news, father says something to then he says that "he has to go to work tomorrow, therefore he can't go to the burial of the dead son and he wont be able to come back early morning"
he was upset as usual, it could be diabetes, blood pressure, depression, who knows, I had to go inside the Apt to get my sandal father closed the door, I was like wait I might have raised my voice I cant recall, though father start saying "What did you say?" and I was like "I need my sandal" he then started slapping my face saying don't you ever rise your voice etc
Adel fled the scene as usual but his cell phn is here getting charged up I asked father to calm down and refused and so on
uncle who I met earlier to give some money so he can buy dinner for his friend called me to tell me about the death and he said he needs help but he dont have a car to go and help.
I got ready, I wore my thoob and head wear, as i was ready to leave the throught the apt door, father was arriving, uncle told him about breaking news, father says something to then he says that "he has to go to work tomorrow, therefore he can't go to the burial of the dead son and he wont be able to come back early morning"
he was upset as usual, it could be diabetes, blood pressure, depression, who knows, I had to go inside the Apt to get my sandal father closed the door, I was like wait I might have raised my voice I cant recall, though father start saying "What did you say?" and I was like "I need my sandal" he then started slapping my face saying don't you ever rise your voice etc
Adel fled the scene as usual but his cell phn is here getting charged up I asked father to calm down and refused and so on
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
Tamayo after odd 7 years
Wednesday 19 Saffar 1431 H
February 3, 2010
EVICTION NOTICE
To Mr. Ronaldo Tamayo,
This a final eviction notice:
you are hereby notified to evict the apartment on March 31 2010 (65 days ), with the complete money payment of any repair to damages occurred while at the apartment.
OR
You can renew the apartment contract for S.R 25,000.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Monday, January 11, 2010
if it hadn't been for the invocations mad in communications no one in the world would have know about these singers.
with internet now, and the US power in entertainment television and US as a power house in publishing and distribution of music.
someone from ghetto in the US would make it in the big times and get recognitions.
Sunday, December 06, 2009
I think the question is this, do people from developed culture see themselves different, and I think the question in this case is do they put their differences ahead of any relations ?
i think that is what had shocked me then, and i think the unclear
i think this relationship showed more than just 'inter relationship"
i think what had happened is that it show how much those coming from moderate backgrounds and from the Arab world in short from developing countries, third world countries have to learn about those who come from developed countries.
even though she came from a humble back ground she still had all those aspects of her culture and back ground, to me she seemed like atypical nice person and i think i burned my self allot with her issues that if it was in her nation those are considered normal issues and are dealt with proficiently something to which people in here still suffer from.
i think this showed how much people from third world countries appear vulnerable when they meet with people from such places, especially Japan I think or maybe not.
there many things that have been written about the Japanese, about their life about their conduct about whether or not they fit most of the developed world's culture or not.
interestingly this is something i noticed when i wrote about the Ainu long ago, i think Japanese knew then and there at the time around 19th century that the only way for them to impress those peers is to dazzle them at any cost of their country, that way Japan is in affect an Asian country with some exceptions things that still persists into this world still.
i had almost all my hopes and dreams based on what we will or will not be able to do in the future whether it will be in Saudi or in Japan or in the States, it just showed so much potential something to which I noticed people in here always think the white man can bring them from overseas, as in they lost hope in development from within themselves and left it to other people to think and lead the way for them and so they put all kind of hopes toward them.
this explains Ahamed Shugry's show on MBC this past Ramadan even though i did not watch the whole show, Ahamed though from well to do family, and well established at least here in Jeddah;
went to Japan and made video about his visit and about his observations which was all awes and wows. nothing new i thought and I think I was right about my assessments that was right Japan has and is been like this for long time, they are not waiting for his reaction they are waiting if any for white people's reactions not ours
That part I did not understood, and I perceived it as plain cold behavior, also I never got why it was hard for her to discuss our differences, both educated both garner good common knowledge, is it really hard for girls to talk their mind or is it Japanese girls, these questions were tough answers to come with and we never were able to come to conclusions with and I still blame it on those artificial differences she brought up from her country.
At heart Japanese are not democratic at best they are nationalistic people and conservatism and that stuff shows in the they are not liberal nor anything they just happened to be able to do things like developed countries and they were able to imitate them then and they still do.
i think that is what had shocked me then, and i think the unclear
i think this relationship showed more than just 'inter relationship"
i think what had happened is that it show how much those coming from moderate backgrounds and from the Arab world in short from developing countries, third world countries have to learn about those who come from developed countries.
even though she came from a humble back ground she still had all those aspects of her culture and back ground, to me she seemed like atypical nice person and i think i burned my self allot with her issues that if it was in her nation those are considered normal issues and are dealt with proficiently something to which people in here still suffer from.
i think this showed how much people from third world countries appear vulnerable when they meet with people from such places, especially Japan I think or maybe not.
there many things that have been written about the Japanese, about their life about their conduct about whether or not they fit most of the developed world's culture or not.
interestingly this is something i noticed when i wrote about the Ainu long ago, i think Japanese knew then and there at the time around 19th century that the only way for them to impress those peers is to dazzle them at any cost of their country, that way Japan is in affect an Asian country with some exceptions things that still persists into this world still.
i had almost all my hopes and dreams based on what we will or will not be able to do in the future whether it will be in Saudi or in Japan or in the States, it just showed so much potential something to which I noticed people in here always think the white man can bring them from overseas, as in they lost hope in development from within themselves and left it to other people to think and lead the way for them and so they put all kind of hopes toward them.
this explains Ahamed Shugry's show on MBC this past Ramadan even though i did not watch the whole show, Ahamed though from well to do family, and well established at least here in Jeddah;
went to Japan and made video about his visit and about his observations which was all awes and wows. nothing new i thought and I think I was right about my assessments that was right Japan has and is been like this for long time, they are not waiting for his reaction they are waiting if any for white people's reactions not ours
That part I did not understood, and I perceived it as plain cold behavior, also I never got why it was hard for her to discuss our differences, both educated both garner good common knowledge, is it really hard for girls to talk their mind or is it Japanese girls, these questions were tough answers to come with and we never were able to come to conclusions with and I still blame it on those artificial differences she brought up from her country.
At heart Japanese are not democratic at best they are nationalistic people and conservatism and that stuff shows in the they are not liberal nor anything they just happened to be able to do things like developed countries and they were able to imitate them then and they still do.
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