few days ago, the Gaza strike started, walked around office trying to see what is on everyone’s mind, I found out to my surprise either I was attempting to talk about a topic that can’t be talked about, or it’s just the way things had grown here that this Gaza topic is a not really a topic.
I was surprised because I learned now that Gaza is like a non declared taboo the suffering in Palestine, and death on the screen Jazeera showing mutilated bodies are on videos, those people I talked with did not give the response that used to be given some years ago.
Gaza became something of a taboo it is on the terrorist list now you talk about and there would be people watching over you in fear that you might be Daboos
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
December 21, 2008
Today was the day that the statement “the Chicken came home to roost” happened to me today.
as it is since coming back I got to learn more or more less about society here or rather some more stuff is raveled while staying here, I say reveled because of my father, and reveled since it had to do with the society as whole I cant generalize about the whole society of the country since Jeddah is the only place I have lived in, but I had heard things are not really that different in other places around.
I had a meeting gathering in at JCCI it was in the sunrise time, I had suggested to my uncle to come with me, a move seen by others as mad move,
I went around nine in the morning I waited for uncle to come out, I think the wait was for 15 min a black guy from a security company was sitting with real armed security guards, the guy approached the window of the small corolla.
He came over and knocked on the driver side window, I opened the window and he asked what business I have here “you are waiting here –he said that or something to that effect”
I told him I am not moving this car and its better for him to just go, and shouted near the guards saying that I wont move,
The guards being lazy nad his nothing to do wanted to get to the subject,
Now here is the situation, normally these things when occur, its almost always will be a fight fist fights even, some of these fight in here are brutal in Jeddah I can say in the US too American are in fact violent people no matter how they paint it.
In my case nothing happened except some trash talk from the both sides, Now the new twist was that these guards were bullshitting in bedu accent, they are from south part of the land, and they looked dehydrated as well, but they felt that this abuse by me to this poor black man was made in purpose, I didn’t care, and I still don’t.
I remember things like this in the past in here, Jeddah from all cities seems to suffer more than anywhere else in this country, and the people who are on both sides of this conflict seem not care, and those who are in the middle seem to suffer the most, because they are neither rich nor poor and they cant claim to either side no one wants them and they always take the fall in these type of things.
Just like the US just like any other places, it is not nationalism any more it something deeper
as it is since coming back I got to learn more or more less about society here or rather some more stuff is raveled while staying here, I say reveled because of my father, and reveled since it had to do with the society as whole I cant generalize about the whole society of the country since Jeddah is the only place I have lived in, but I had heard things are not really that different in other places around.
I had a meeting gathering in at JCCI it was in the sunrise time, I had suggested to my uncle to come with me, a move seen by others as mad move,
I went around nine in the morning I waited for uncle to come out, I think the wait was for 15 min a black guy from a security company was sitting with real armed security guards, the guy approached the window of the small corolla.
He came over and knocked on the driver side window, I opened the window and he asked what business I have here “you are waiting here –he said that or something to that effect”
I told him I am not moving this car and its better for him to just go, and shouted near the guards saying that I wont move,
The guards being lazy nad his nothing to do wanted to get to the subject,
Now here is the situation, normally these things when occur, its almost always will be a fight fist fights even, some of these fight in here are brutal in Jeddah I can say in the US too American are in fact violent people no matter how they paint it.
In my case nothing happened except some trash talk from the both sides, Now the new twist was that these guards were bullshitting in bedu accent, they are from south part of the land, and they looked dehydrated as well, but they felt that this abuse by me to this poor black man was made in purpose, I didn’t care, and I still don’t.
I remember things like this in the past in here, Jeddah from all cities seems to suffer more than anywhere else in this country, and the people who are on both sides of this conflict seem not care, and those who are in the middle seem to suffer the most, because they are neither rich nor poor and they cant claim to either side no one wants them and they always take the fall in these type of things.
Just like the US just like any other places, it is not nationalism any more it something deeper
How bedu murders happen
Today was the day to which, the statement the “Past caught up with my present” happened today, and as it is since coming back I got , I got to learn more or less about society here or kind of..; more stuff is revealed while staying here I say revealed because of my father, and revealed since it had to do with the society as whole I cannot generalize about the whole society since Jeddah is the only place I live in and I never got to be in other towns or villages.
I had a meeting a gathering at the JCCI in the morning,
I had suggested to my uncle to come with, a move seen by my father as a bad move,
I went around ten in the morning I waited for uncle to come out, I think something like 15 minutes had passed when a around a dark guy perhaps middle 20’s approached my father’s car, he was part of a security company that was sitting or camping outside a small pity villa, with other guys from the Saudi national guards.
from my understanding these guys in uniform are “soldiers” I say that because they were wearing the brown sand checkered uniform seen by many here,
the guy who approached the window of the car was a small and he came to about the same size of the Corolla that my father owns, he gestured to talk, and knocked on the window so I opened it.
From the moment he approached I figured something was going to happen either an argument, a fight it the norm in here I really say that and I believe in it, and now its to about pointing out negatives in here it’s just as I said the norm,.
he came over and knocked on the driver side window, I opened the window he asked me saying… “the guys over there the soldiers are asking if you have something around here… because you are stopping and waiting here –
I told him this is my uncle’s home and I am waiting for him to come over why ?,
he didn’t answer instead he did something predictable, I noticed allot blacks working with anything bedu, he did the shouting bullshit game thing, and it went something like “soldiers this guy won’t move” as he finished it was my uncle’s exit from his house, so now that security kid went behind the solider boys and started throwing insults, uncle as with the most of the radical went on and insulted and as it goes with Bedouin hired in these places there is a feeling of that they insult behind the suite they are wearing as to, if he wasn’t wearing it he wouldn’t normally insult you, so some insulting went on I ignored them and when my uncle asked to stop the car I did and I had to open the door and follow, it had to do nothing with fighting I in fact had no intentions in fighting them which is as usual understood wrongly here pussy!
At any rate nothing happened so we go back and or rather I had to take him back to his home and long and behold as usually history picks up with me, the Bedouin in suites had took off their suites and brought in some of their fastest guys and were ready to fight, so I figured there has to be fight or it looked like atypical Bedouin fight the changed so they can fight. Nothing happened again I had to intuition to fight and even if it happened I was intending of saying what was on my mind and then I guess fight,
But there is problem, these boys are in effect hiding behind the suite plus, if the thing went on it is really unclear to what will happen, it is assumed that they will have and upper hand in this even if I had beat them they are in a union type so I guess they will all stick together plus they are bedu and bedu are nasty in almost all situations, so they were trying to fright us no more and so I ignored I had to no time for either thing, so I ignored
I had to take the car to my father and know how he won’t take my side in almost anything I was quite and he asked, sometimes my father’s fear makes to me, and I feel I honestly do that I do not have anything in this place so in I don’t have a back as well, bunch of hadrmiy people never got together nor they ever wanted to form any kind of strong alliance we are fractured and pretend that we are not but that is a different story, my father asked what is wrong as he always ask and I told him and he acted limp as always fear, but I always think that he should stick together no freaky time, what is at issue is whether or not it is justified to be insulted by someone and keep getting insulted for who you are, and what u stand for and here is the thing you did not step on no owned toe you are mind your business and you are walking by the wall and your head is on the ground so why live in such fear
So what is your fear from then? I have to fear me getting on these boy’s nerve just for my presence, as always, just fear them for no reason, and the way I see it and I always do is I still have nothing to give nor take, I even tried to convey that to family, I sympathizes with and I had t do nothing with my uncle at all, this guy is not really bad his ideology is but its bullshit when he gets blamed just for associations no more, which is what happened with family and I really don’t like that,
I here there are no justices that I know, in here machismo is all the rage and still is, what is really astonishing is how this society grows and these things grow with it that is what is wrong that is what worrying, my mother and father are either weak people or strong only on us kids because we are on their realm but they keep forgetting that we as kids are dealing with society when we go out, so unless they assert confidence in us or just leave us to convince our self, I was actually freaking out or fearing because I was concerned about my father no more, plus it is that feeling that covers me before physical fight, when I go into on I always try to win it from all sides or at least have the upper advantage but in this case what is wining and what is losing in fighting in Saudi? Seriously what is it ?
in here if you have no back to lay on the u don't do anything,
in the states I had only myself so I really did not care, about only about myself
but I am plagued by my past in here I can’t do anything without thinking about my weak father and mother, but if I do be thinking like that I suffer to be weak and to be weak here is to be opened to almost everything positive and negative but mostly nigavte there are no really positive here.
it is like the mob days in the 30's they were giving the biggest gift to people rich and poor a back for some money and "respect" we are not far from cave time no matter how much we think we are.
I had a meeting a gathering at the JCCI in the morning,
I had suggested to my uncle to come with, a move seen by my father as a bad move,
I went around ten in the morning I waited for uncle to come out, I think something like 15 minutes had passed when a around a dark guy perhaps middle 20’s approached my father’s car, he was part of a security company that was sitting or camping outside a small pity villa, with other guys from the Saudi national guards.
from my understanding these guys in uniform are “soldiers” I say that because they were wearing the brown sand checkered uniform seen by many here,
the guy who approached the window of the car was a small and he came to about the same size of the Corolla that my father owns, he gestured to talk, and knocked on the window so I opened it.
From the moment he approached I figured something was going to happen either an argument, a fight it the norm in here I really say that and I believe in it, and now its to about pointing out negatives in here it’s just as I said the norm,.
he came over and knocked on the driver side window, I opened the window he asked me saying… “the guys over there the soldiers are asking if you have something around here… because you are stopping and waiting here –
I told him this is my uncle’s home and I am waiting for him to come over why ?,
he didn’t answer instead he did something predictable, I noticed allot blacks working with anything bedu, he did the shouting bullshit game thing, and it went something like “soldiers this guy won’t move” as he finished it was my uncle’s exit from his house, so now that security kid went behind the solider boys and started throwing insults, uncle as with the most of the radical went on and insulted and as it goes with Bedouin hired in these places there is a feeling of that they insult behind the suite they are wearing as to, if he wasn’t wearing it he wouldn’t normally insult you, so some insulting went on I ignored them and when my uncle asked to stop the car I did and I had to open the door and follow, it had to do nothing with fighting I in fact had no intentions in fighting them which is as usual understood wrongly here pussy!
At any rate nothing happened so we go back and or rather I had to take him back to his home and long and behold as usually history picks up with me, the Bedouin in suites had took off their suites and brought in some of their fastest guys and were ready to fight, so I figured there has to be fight or it looked like atypical Bedouin fight the changed so they can fight. Nothing happened again I had to intuition to fight and even if it happened I was intending of saying what was on my mind and then I guess fight,
But there is problem, these boys are in effect hiding behind the suite plus, if the thing went on it is really unclear to what will happen, it is assumed that they will have and upper hand in this even if I had beat them they are in a union type so I guess they will all stick together plus they are bedu and bedu are nasty in almost all situations, so they were trying to fright us no more and so I ignored I had to no time for either thing, so I ignored
I had to take the car to my father and know how he won’t take my side in almost anything I was quite and he asked, sometimes my father’s fear makes to me, and I feel I honestly do that I do not have anything in this place so in I don’t have a back as well, bunch of hadrmiy people never got together nor they ever wanted to form any kind of strong alliance we are fractured and pretend that we are not but that is a different story, my father asked what is wrong as he always ask and I told him and he acted limp as always fear, but I always think that he should stick together no freaky time, what is at issue is whether or not it is justified to be insulted by someone and keep getting insulted for who you are, and what u stand for and here is the thing you did not step on no owned toe you are mind your business and you are walking by the wall and your head is on the ground so why live in such fear
So what is your fear from then? I have to fear me getting on these boy’s nerve just for my presence, as always, just fear them for no reason, and the way I see it and I always do is I still have nothing to give nor take, I even tried to convey that to family, I sympathizes with and I had t do nothing with my uncle at all, this guy is not really bad his ideology is but its bullshit when he gets blamed just for associations no more, which is what happened with family and I really don’t like that,
I here there are no justices that I know, in here machismo is all the rage and still is, what is really astonishing is how this society grows and these things grow with it that is what is wrong that is what worrying, my mother and father are either weak people or strong only on us kids because we are on their realm but they keep forgetting that we as kids are dealing with society when we go out, so unless they assert confidence in us or just leave us to convince our self, I was actually freaking out or fearing because I was concerned about my father no more, plus it is that feeling that covers me before physical fight, when I go into on I always try to win it from all sides or at least have the upper advantage but in this case what is wining and what is losing in fighting in Saudi? Seriously what is it ?
in here if you have no back to lay on the u don't do anything,
in the states I had only myself so I really did not care, about only about myself
but I am plagued by my past in here I can’t do anything without thinking about my weak father and mother, but if I do be thinking like that I suffer to be weak and to be weak here is to be opened to almost everything positive and negative but mostly nigavte there are no really positive here.
it is like the mob days in the 30's they were giving the biggest gift to people rich and poor a back for some money and "respect" we are not far from cave time no matter how much we think we are.
Saturday, December 06, 2008
From Makkah to Menaa the 4 million legacy
Makkah and pilgrimage,
this is Mina, it was on Friday afternoon, I get a call from the guys at the paper, they tell me where you at?,
I told them I am home of course I might be going to Madina instead of our tirp to Makkah, he said no you cant because you had secured a ride to Makka and maybe to Mina, I said ok i ll be there in short time.
I rushed into the room I gathered anything that i thought was right to put into the a small traveling bag.
4+ Million people in a 7 kilometer parameter is something to be experienced, it is during prayer time that you see all those millions heading to one direction and it adds to the owe of the place.
this is Mina, it was on Friday afternoon, I get a call from the guys at the paper, they tell me where you at?,
I told them I am home of course I might be going to Madina instead of our tirp to Makkah, he said no you cant because you had secured a ride to Makka and maybe to Mina, I said ok i ll be there in short time.
I rushed into the room I gathered anything that i thought was right to put into the a small traveling bag.
4+ Million people in a 7 kilometer parameter is something to be experienced, it is during prayer time that you see all those millions heading to one direction and it adds to the owe of the place.
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