stranger still among the rest

Again I am faced with these oddly situations, in which people around have to show some of their great skills of been afraid looking toward your image.I wondered again eversince something like that happens whether they are just following the instructions or just been themselves. The reason I had to mention this for the reason that sometimes I grew tired of all this kind of behavior, when in fact the majority of the people who are like me have already been departed from here. I wonder how long it will take for me to endure such things for such long period.

writing day

I am trying to write a written letter for my father, I wonder who else like have to do the same thing. By saying like I mean, an international student away from home, away in long time period, under some special circumstances. I wonder if other international student as in my case, have to explain more and promise less, I wonder if the rest of them fall under the same pressure, to produce more then they can actually handle, I wonder if
They lie, try to deceive, thing is not necessary everyone in the world get to come here, perhaps in our case, and our particular income status, we can afford to come here, but we cant afford to stay, and be the “same like us”, when we arrive, we try to either join the minority foreign, get along with our own student friend , some time we don’t get along at all, but pretend to get along, because we have no one else to hang around with,
I wonder if other saudi student do write letters, to their families, what do they say, what will the say, about, there is and still is all kind of stuff to talk about, where to start, where to end it. ? This country is not, as it was when parents were here, in mid 70’s early 80’s although it might look like it, things not necessary changed, and if it did, definitely for the worse. I actually do wonder is they do write letters to their families in the first place.