At the time it occurred...to me,
i understood it well at that time,
in one year things around did change,
its not the same.
you talk and none relates,
you walk and no one knows the move,
sad or bad is not the issue no more.

awe

he couldn't imagine that day,
so he deals with it everyday now,
200 years or so ago, he his family lived on the streets and he dreamed,
Now he owns those streets all of them,
his family used be looked at with dismay,
Now he walks and people still look at him with them with awe,

puppet

a puppet made of raw materials wood, tree glue, paints... everyone get the chance to looks these raw materials, never think anything of it.
whoever then comes a puppeteer he cuts the wood, paste the glue he assembles the parts the materials. creates a puppet.
the puppet is on display everyone is looking at it.
it talks it walks it feels it dance.
what a puppeteer

matters not

but dose it really matter after all.
he didn't know at all before,
and now he thinks he knows you know.
days and weeks and months and years knowledge accumulated allot.
the talk and the knowledge, the substance was never there.
now he thinks no one is listening,
maybe they don't listen because your talk, knowledge means nothing,
it has no substance you forget to have when you thought you did.

Full Three Yrs

After all seven or more years he realized to open these doors and start working his way through these rubbles.

he had told him in the past that, this was the best way for you to do your things, in fact it is much cheaper to just kick them out and clean up and keep the place for yourself it is had he listened…

-If their mother was to be taking care of everything that it was their naturally their  job in this case his job.

the concept of him standing on his legs and steady steady tries to get back on his own. This is the right way to it.

Had he done it…. he felt he would have lost everything or lost some or maybe not lost anything and or win it all back, how far was he willing to go ? It never occurred to him or maybe it did he just didn't want to realize it.

I think I can say with all certainty, that I personally don't see solid future for the place.
old district how it has become it, the sounds of people's fear of visiting histhese buildings say in positive sense is amazing...what they say and what is history.
i think it has never occurred to the some that among the crowds that yearn for these fragile memories, among them are no single person who own these trashed buildings.
the people are just doing it because its strong feelings to the place and to the time.
it was/is greed.
its always near to complete but not complete, nor it will ever
I wonder why is it, why is it that its always almost 99.9% and won't want to make it to the 100.

The Mind boggles.

how much his marriage had become a mess a wreck .. after all he thinks that it's not his fault but as much as its almost the whole world’s fault, particularly the crown!
it was a combinations of youths and love and hate and all of the these things,  at the end things had to look on certain way and it always hit him in Wednesday for some reason

Jeddah car auction, a frenzy of market place, located not far from Jeddah Stadium south eastern part of the city.

after managing your way through huge truck drivers hauling cars madly in and out of an area less than half a mile in diameter.the car auction it self is situated in the middle of this circle, surrounded by car dealer shops. just at edge of the market auctioneer start shouting through their megaphones.

just at the entrance of the market comes car auction dealers making hand gestures with their thumbs up for a good price down for fair price if you just stop the vehicle.

"there is a misconception in the public minds about us car auctioneers." middle aged AlHarthy said. when a person approaches us as a seller we try to give him as good deal by estimating his vehicles value based on its exterior and engine's conditions.

car auctioning in Jeddah auction have been for the past several years profitable business venture, many people such alHarthy left thire jobs and started selling,buying and, repairing.

some times an auctioneer like my self losses money instead of gaining as most think, i buy a car from a seller i take it fix it's paint and dents and i end up selling at the initial price that i estimated for it so where is the profit?"

as you would enter the market right from the start men in staging on the edge if road pointing with fingers, signs only few experienced buyers Sellers understand. these signs serve as on the fly quote for the car your driving.

when a person stops, no less the five people would approach the driver, and stray shouting prices and estimation to the cars worth. if a price sounded good a person sells the car if not they move one, however to maintain market control some of these care buyer would tell thire Friends along the road of a customer with certain model to be a sellers would basically fix the Price or under value a Sellers car to maintain market control.

another car shop dealer Ali told, that his job is to bring onto the market as much vehicles as possible,"you see these trucks they contain many vehicles". These "newly arrived" cars again go through some refurbishing before its sent to the market place. Ali said there are no inspection done on these vehicles "if you want to check the car it's up to you, a car here is like a fish in an ocean".

however without a professional car inspections many buyers end up with a lemon. a car buyer told of time when bought car from and auctioneer on the street, American car and it looked good from the outside but as he drove it , the car's engine failed and auctioneer refused to take it back. he advised that as buyer one should inspect the car and scrutinizes its paints for dents and mistakes.

Ali's owner of the car shop admitted the market is not like it used be man years ago. he added customers are more well informed these days. "they put us in the spot asking too many technical questions which past buyers dared to ask in the past ten years buyers just bought the car on face value which isthe norm in the market",

flow of information plays a major part Ali speculated, acess to information like the Internet and the use of cell phone gives customers a better way to bargin with us. before all the information about the car used to be supplied by the seller not the buyers.

Ali also mentioned that the nature of the market has changed more new young commerces are taking over the auctioneers job. i started here thirteen years ago the demography of sellers is really young and can use their cell phone to inform each others to fix the price on a customer.

one buyer advised to check the date of purchase the original buyer obtained the car. also he advised that a buyer should be alert to the condition the car is at, for example rough smoke coming from the muffler can tell allot about the cars condition.

its tipping, but here it wont

I was hearing the tipping out guy speak about his theories of how things move and end becoming things.

And I couldn’t help but think, that these things he was talking about wouldn’t have happened unless in a place like the US. Maybe other places, but I really doubt in here, at least not in the way viral stuff became the way it went in say Boston.
Saturated

Your always be hidden.

Your always be hidden.
Its not a mere of chance that when technology arrived here and in mass he got overwhelmed not just him, his wife children and his mom and father as well.

So he had to counter that…how?. An immerse in information had to be met with and immerse with no information ast all, or at least with some littlie information.

Face it this was a place to which almost the whole world directs its attention to five times a day, by its nature it had to have attention I think at times he goes through these thoughts, and think whether or not the whole idea of moving here was worth.

He knew the people wont do him wrong on his service on the net,
it just felt right that, when phone service centers were created.
It took the shape of the people that live in the land.
He knew that, not matter how is company is doing bad, his phone call service at the company wont be affected. “ people here are just nice, that's all” he said.

Here There and nowhere

it has to not make sense,
it had happened, there no point of going back,
there is no point to 'To look back'
it had happened.
we are here, need to deal with it,
but to whom?
it will get there but who will be there to wait for it?

and the boys cried to the Americans in the group among them "please hide our IP address please..."

normally I wont blame the media.
At the end, the media is only a product.
Those behind has to and want to sell shit,
the question remains...who buys shit?
those who don't give a shit

by them given them some attention,
so called news picks the topic,
by u telling them that, that is what the prophet is like,
you admit to what they amid at and made the point,
you look as ignorant as they do,
you wanted attention as they did,

This thought went through my mind, also it could be another explanation. that is if such tribal connection has ever existed.

Those few individuals who felt it was time to leave the pack as oppose stay within it. Those who grew their own pack and from there own made a branch of their own within the bigger tribal or clan.
This signifies the roots of civil and uncivil in here. I think it is relevant for those who want to explain how they ended up here is to distinguish whether or not theirs comes from those who had left or stayed out fear or consolidate
A quick look onto their cheer number, explains that there was one who felt to make it on his own, and out of fear kept in his blood line.
I wonder if there are others like him here who followed along his path

they come from all walks of life, but wait not all countries, maybe just the those more than few super poor countries, they come to Jeddah to Makkah.

when i got back in 08 its seemed to me that the majority of the hard labor worker, builders, mavens, bakers hand work…in general. it is been done by people who came and then did not leave the land. however i was struck by the age variations within these workers, they are all old as in more than 50 years old construction workers.

this is not all, in another field such as newspaper, most of the workers or editors in this case, i looked and found are all old Egyptians, Syrians and other speaking Arabic national.

these observation really made wonder, or maybe made it clear if there will be any improvement in the movement for real development here.

the young and the able are all for administrative jobs , non wants to build men or woman in this case.

so these men are brought in to build and pave the roads, but for these guys its just a quick way to make money.     

“The number of passengers chosen at random for extra screening will also increase, officials said.”
there is no random when you look the way I look, white people are just funny with money.

With all these information, all these people he didn’t know but he know about where they went where they will go, Clicks and clacks and green names on a black screen, and black names on white screen…for the first time he felt supreme, he felt like Informaglos the information hungry god who gathers and read them.
he never knew he would that powerful sometime

Before and after

Sometimes in the year 2000, I was wondering around the Webster Hall it was just after English writing or reading Class.

She was sitting on the floor by the side of the door, black eye small but bright, Hair was black and stirght and short with a slight of brown. “what’s your name ?”, she asked
I adujsted my stand came near her, got next to her sitting tiny healthy body, replied, “you speak good English”, “thank you”, the next thing I can not remember , but I do remember getting invited to her place sometime next week, we did meet briefly from time to time, just like the day, when there was a dinner serving at the Webster hall and I sighted her walking outside and I shouted come here, she came over and the rest I cant remember,

Before coming here, it was rough, hot and bitter, not always like that, but the feelings still flow in me, approaching girls was always a problem either for me, for her, or for both of us and for the “community”, when I met here, although I cant stop, looking, I really felt the inner peace.

Something about this girl just grabs me, not necessary a Japanese thing, Japanese girls are been known in campus to hang around just for the heck of hanging around,
I think personally of the reason of that they don’t have perceive people in the matter of the way we do see girls, we tend in purpose to pick on who we want to have, just for the fact of their outer looks, simple as that, but for us it reasonable enough, if he/she wears and ride fine, then the rest should be the same and by rest it’s the inner self and soul...etc.

My interest in anything Japanese is since childhood, its funny however that mentioning this to a Japanese person normally a male, he/she just don’t really mind it, well this point is understood, but thinking that someone shares someone else pop culture especially that of childhood would be appreciated, for example when I met her, I kept mention Japanese animation that a whole Saudi children well into their 40’s by now, grew to love and really adhere to its messages, one in particular is a cartoon called in Arabic [Adnan wa Lina]. And the romanized name from Japanese is future Boy Conan something like that, this particular cartoon, is really a legend in saudi, people grow up no doubt but that cartoon is just there.

So I mentioned this cartoon, and to my surprise the mild reaction was well. Mild, of course mention a cartoon to an “adult conversation” would seem stupid, but again it was Esl and it was English class, and first time meeting a Japanese person,
thinking about it must the way growing to my 20’s here in the Midwest in which, anything that looks not anything like my self is new, so look into what you have, as a person and try finding what we might have in common other then been humans, and mention it. for them or at least the ones I met , it meant nothing.

Trying to work my way to understand this girl took huge effort, but the result was and still is a love love relationship. I can never say I trusted her motive and, and this could for the main reason of our English barrier, tons of words were either messed part of its meaning or the whole meaning. A problem that still floats till now.

Too Many

They all start at around the same time and finish slightly after each others.
Its like a concert all over town, loud speakers.
When I came back have been used to it while growing up, I found little bit annoying at times, interestingly admitting this, that a microphone is loud from the call to pryer is called apostasy.

I hear them and think they all area competing for Air time, adverting for all to come to their house of Allah and leave everyone else.

When you go inside its little bit difference it is loud but this time there is a touch of voice enhancers to add to the dramatic effect of the reading.

They just got used to it I guess, it must have started sometimes in the fifties, interestingly also no one recalls when it was used nor who was the first to bring it to the houses of god, its never mentioned and when u hear it and see how imams wield it you think the transition was seamless , maybe it was maybe it wasn't and no one knows again, as its brushed off as unimportant. To me I think its the core of the tradition they are trying hard to protect.